Have you ever had a dream that felt so real, you wake up still tasting what you ate needing to pee after going five times in the dream and feeling how many miles you walked? Now, has that dream ever been a bad dream, a nightmare? Has it ever frightened you, not because there were monsters, but because you were the monster yourself? Where the after effects are shame and fatigue and still needing to pee?
What does one do? I feel I hurt a very dear friend and that I need to apologize and beg forgiveness. I feel I ruined a friendship and that I need to try and repair it. I feel I broke the rules and need to repent and hide it from my mom and pay off the people who saw and then repent for doing those horrid things. I feel I need to crawl in a hole and hide from humanity for the rest of my life. I feel awful.
And it wasn't even real.
It never happened. Now, more than ever, it never will. Why is this dream so crushing and painful? Why can't I forget it like all my other dreams? Why can't I make it stop?
Dreams terrify me.
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Positivity: terrify comes from the Latin word "terreo," which means "scare, frighten." How freaking awesome is that.
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