I wish I had something for y'all to read.
Except "y'all" is probably no one at this point; I've barely posted this year, and when I do, it's just the same old thing over and over. Sadness. Despair. Hope that maybe things are getting better. Realizing that I'm just as pathetic as always.
I'd like to say that I'm getting better. I'd like to say that I was so frightened and so hysterical last week, but now, thanks to Ali and Logan, I've changed. I'd like to tell you about how I've been reading my scriptures and hanging out with the people who love me the most and what blessings these have been. I'd like to say anything and everything about work and school and life. I wish I could tell you about how I've found a boyfriend who is able to show me that I have no need to despair all the time and who is content to just watch White Collar and read Pride and Prejudice with me. I wish I had someone who didn't want to kiss me and that I wouldn't care because I'd already be happy. I wish this person was out there and didn't have a girlfriend. I wish that my friends did have girlfriends and that they would be happy.
I wish I could be happy. I hope no one reads this.
