Self-Explanatory Post

I'm not going to be able to say even half of the things I want to, but here goes:

I'm thankful for the way the high note in Time For Three's "Hallelujah" seems to punch me right in the gut with the softest touch, shooting straight up into my heart like the Heimlich gone right, giving real meaning to that one Bob Marley quote.

I'm thankful for pie.

I'm thankful for Moonrise Kingdom for showing me the most beautiful and imperfect children and making camping a bit more attractive.

I'm thankful for The Lizzie Bennet Diaries for being such an excellent time waster of mine.

I'm thankful I know that Sudan recently split into two countries and that there are plenty of Christians in Africa so that I am more aware of the global culture I am a part of and so that people don't think I'm ignorant.

I'm thankful for DMA, where I learned you could become the firmest and most natural friends with a stranger in less than a week and where I met a boy who would wipe away my tears and read centuries old poetry to me and rap and dance and hold my hand as we skipped down the street and where my favorite hash tag became #inhonoroftom and I was filled star thoughts and I got to be my screaming counting cheering crying self at a DCI show and where I first realized how lucky I was to be a drum major with those exact three people.

I'm thankful for toilets. Like, immensely thankful, praising the heavens and groveling on the floor thankful.

I'm thankful I have a best friend who loves to read as much as I do and who doesn't hate me after probably scaring away one of her friends/creepers over the Internet.

I'm thankful I love Logan more than I hate No Shave November. We could never get married, but I love knowing that I could marry him and be eternally happy with an intelligent, faithful, hilarious, determined, financially-minded, musically-inclined son of God who knows the names of many Land Before Time movies.

I'm thankful for all the times Cam has let me see him cry. It's shows a rather juxtapositional strength of being able to share your feelings, no matter how embarrassing or terrifying it may be. He is willing to both talk and listen to me. He makes me feel important and loved. He gives me strength. Both of the boys do.

I'm thankful for Caitlin and how she doesn't think I'm crazy or weird or creepy since we're kinda the same person. I am thankful for her presence by my side everyday, past and present. There's really not much I can say; I just have the best sister wife anyone could ask for.

I am thankful for Janelle's gratitude post and her love of German culture and her love of boys and her love of art and her love of Psalms and her love of me.

I'm thankful for Tony and the TARDIS that sits proudly atop my dresser and the memories I have of being in awe of him on the bus from California and sitting by the fire and freezing up in the complete darkness of the cave and singing harmonies and dancing with/tripping over him under the stars and crisscrossed branches and laying in Taylie's yard and on Erin's couch and laughing on the bus and just sitting together in church, but most especially for the hug he offered when I would've felt lucky to not be laughed at. Everyday, he reminds me everyday that even when things are hopeless, that doesn't mean there's not a reason to smile, and if for nothing else, I'm thankful for that.

I'm thankful for AVPM.

I'm thankful for one last chance to do guard. It has been one of the shaping forces in my life, and while it has been a roller coaster of triumph for the past three years, I am just happy to look ahead to the next five months with hope.

I am thankful for the gratification one feels after they fill a starving belly with food. It's a miracle, our body's reward system. It's a miracle, our body.

I am thankful for Psychology and Latin and Language, my "just for fun" classes. Knowledge is a gift, and I am thankful I have been given the skills to learn, use, and appreciate it.

I am thankful for the new friends I am making and continually coming closer with, such as Breanne and Bradan and Gage and Jordan and Brayden and Natalie and my new favorite section, the Saxophones. They give me hope and confidence that I can make friends even though it scares the crap out of me.

I'm thankful for Sam and her constant belief in me. I wish I could be as supportive to her as she is to me. Her jittery legs and suppressed squeals and mascara-ridden tears are all signs of a beautiful girl who only deserves the best. She just makes me a better person.

I am thankful for the rhythm I can find in the hum of a ceiling fan and the cracks in the sidewalk and skeletal system of a cat.

I am thankful for attractive men.

I am thankful for root words

I am thankful for my iPod.

I am thankful for my true loves, past and future.

I am thankful for band. I will never stop being thankful for band. I will be in heaven, exclaiming how thankful I am for band.

I am thankful for the sun.

I am thankful for you.